I'm Sorry, But No Apologies

I admit I often wonder
What do you see in me?
The woman that inspires
Or the one that seeks to be?
The girl never admired
Or the woman that is too much?
The feelings you've retired
Or the chick you want to touch?
Am I the fanner of the fire
Or there for you in the clutch?
Never fancied myself a liar
but may stretch myself too much.

I've only ever wanted to take you higher
Exert my wisdom muse
My love never retires
Although my love gets used
Not sure what you saw prior
But today is all I know
Yesterday seems not as dire
And not clear 'bout tomorrow
A shame to say this through the wire
Keeping my distance long
It's never been my desire
Although the outcome's wrong.

Hopefully I'm preaching to the choir
And you understand my recluse ways
I'd just hate to be a flier
In your book, an excerpt on a page
I wish not to conspire
Or make you feel I'm false
To exist, I do require
That some people will get lost
Wish there was some life umpire
to make those final calls
But alone I walk this briar
I take the credit and the falls.